My Family

"Life will knock you down. You can choose to stand up again."

Thursday, January 31, 2013

The Buddha Boy

Kaydon. KK. KAY KAY. Buddha. This little man is a hoot! He has so much personality. He is super shy around people outside of the family, but at home he is a crack up! He loves to do dance moves and tell us that he knows he is "hot" and "sexy." Then he just laughs his little heart out. He thinks he is hilarious. I do too. He loves to cook. He loves to play with action figures. He LOVES his DVD player and watching all of Nana's awesome movies. He loves to sing. He loves to snuggle with his Mama. His Mama loves that too! He also loves to practice his recorder. He has a little spot set up in the music room. He practices that thing three to four times a day. He loves it. He loves going to the Library with Nana. He loves cuddling with Brooklyn and taking care of her. He loves buy things for other people. He loves to serve. He has such a big heart.
Last night, he had a little break down and cried and went into the computer room and shut the door. He was very mad at me for going to school "every night." I only have class two nights a week, but homework most every night. He doesn't like that apparently. It broke my heart, but I know that when I graduate, he will be cheering the very loudest. Oh, I love my boys.

Wednesday, January 30, 2013

Fight Night with Durbin

Last Saturday night, the boys and I had to watch Durbin. It was fight night, too. So, we packed up some yummy food and headed to Farmington. The boys brought along their DVD players to watch their movies. I watched my fights, they watched their movies, and we all tried to control Durbin. He was SO naughty! He bit me. He ate Braxton's shoe. He kept trying to get on the counter to get real food. We were all exhausted when we left that night! Still, the boys love playing with him and I'm pretty sure the boys wear him out!

Friday, January 25, 2013

Celebrate Good Times!

School = stress for me. A lot of stress... like wishing death would befall me prior to having to go take my first History quiz last night-kind of stress. Bad, bad stress. Like Miss Birdie having to talk me down from the ledge-kind of stress. Like I was at a point where I would rather vomit up dog crap than take my first quiz-kind of stress. You get the point. I will have you know that I didn't do any of the aforementioned deeds. Self-control. I did go to class and take the quiz. I have no idea what I got on it... I don't even really care at this point. The fear from that moment is over. I made it. I did it. I lived. All is well. Therefore, on my way home, I stopped at Dairy Queen, purchased an ice cream cake, had them write "way to go" on it in pink frosting (they couldn't fit my name on there), and took it home to celebrate good times with the quorum and the Nana.
That's right... we celebrated NOT a grade, NOT the outcome of the aforementioned traumatizing quiz... we celebrated the fact that I prepared as well as I could, I went and took it without breaking out into shingles, I did my best, I didn't sit in the corner of the classroom in the fetal position rocking myself back and forth while I sucked my thumb... I did it. We celebrated that!
I would also like to mention that Jackson noted that he takes a test "like everyday at school" so we should totally celebrate "like everyday!" This is not about you JACKSON. This is about your slightly ill mother!!!! :)

Thursday, January 24, 2013

The Bubba & Little Miss

Brooklyn has a role for each of the boys. If she wants to play animals or monsters or trucks or hide and seek, she goes to Kaydon or Colton. They are often times found with leashes tied around their bodies, crawling on the floor, barking like puppies. If she wants a sippy cup with milk, or a bowl with cereal, or someone to tattle on, she goes to "Dude" (Braxton). If she wants to cuddle or feel protected or play really awesome games, she goes to Jackson. Jackson is so great with her. During Sacrament Meeting, she is always SO proud to see "her" Jackson passing the Sacrament. There was a time when she would stand up on the bench and yell his name while waving. One day, Jackson had a friend over and Brooklyn was NOT happy! She told that friend in no uncertain terms that he was to go home because Jackson was "her" Jackson. On Sunday, she got her pillow and her blanket (which is a full sized comforter) and dragged them over to Jackson. She had her sippy cup and told Jackson that she wanted him to hold her. She got in his lap and went right to sleep. It was so sweet to see Jackson just chillin' in the chair while she slept peacefully. Love these two!

Wednesday, January 23, 2013

The Little Peanut Man

I was looking through my camera last night and found these self-photographs of My Peanut Man. Braxton loves wearing hats and so I think that it's pretty cute that he took a bunch of pictures with different hats on!
Braxton has a bit of my heart and a bit of my brain in him. He is super sensitive and gets his feelings hurt easily. He is also very compassionate, very kind and very giving. He is always wanting to "help" everyone. Sometimes that gets him in trouble.
Braxton starts my car and scrapes the windows for me every morning. If there is snow on the hood of the car, he writes "I love you" in it. It makes my day!
Braxton is also a fantastic taco soup-maker. I love this kid!!!

Tuesday, January 22, 2013

Josh's Birthday Weekend

We celebrated Josh's birthday a bit late. Better late than never! We went to a Grizzlies game with the whole famdamily. That was fun! Oh, the fights! Then, we went to Smash Burger for dinner. Oh, the goodness! Yummers! After the game, we went to a hotel close to the Maverick Center. I did a little decorating with the help of the kids. We SO had whoopie cussions for the kids to play with! Josh was not impressed. Oh, but I was!! Then, the kids got to swim on Sunday. They got to swim their little hearts out. I sat in the hot tub. Oh, Heaven! The kiddos wore themselves out happily. It was a very fun birthday weekend for the old man!

Monday, January 21, 2013

The Decision

So, as I have stated before, I have chosen to go back to school to earn my Associates Degree in General Studies. Before I began having children, I completed about 1/3 of the credits necessary to earn it. Then, I stopped going to school. I really haven't thought about going back to school since then. Things in my life haven't exactly been "going back to school" material! A few trials here, a few trials there... going back to school was the last thing on my mind... literally.
Child support hasn't exactly been something I have been able to count on or rely on. My sweet B. Beck told me just before the Christmas break that I needed to stop praying that child support would be paid and start praying for the ability to forgive and for the ability to support my kids and I in other ways. As always, I listened to B. Beck! She is seriously ALWAYS right! While on Christmas break, I had an undeniable impression that I needed to go back to school and that I needed to do it now. I haven't always been so good at listening to said "impressions." In fact, I down right stink at it! But this time, for whatever reason, I listened. The day I got back from Christmas break, I went in and spoke to an Academic Advisor. The same day, I re-enrolled in school. The next day, I paid my admissions fee and applied for financial aid. Two days later, I took the Accuplacer test. Two days after that, I registered for classes, which was VERY difficult because it was the week before the semester started. But, I did find classes and got registered. Last week, I started school. I KNOW that this is what I am supposed to be doing. I am horrible at school, always have been. But, I feel like this time around I am not alone. I am trying to train my brain to study, comprehend, remember and recall again. It's been 18 years since I was in school. I am trying to be patient with myself. Miss Birdie keeps telling me, "C's earn degrees!" Hooray for friends who think I'm just great being average!! My mom has been a blessing. She makes sure I get to bed early, makes sure the boys are fed and to school, makes sure the boys are fed and have their homework done... she listens to me read 40 pages of History out loud. She reminds me over and over again that I CAN do this and that she's proud of me. Phew! I FULLY expect every single person who reads this to be at my College Graduation when that day comes!!!!!!!

Thursday, January 17, 2013

My Lunch Date

I went to lunch with Janie (Nay Nay) and Lilly Bug today. Oh my goodness, these girls! I could not get enough of them! Janie hardly ate anything. She had SO much to say! I know her favorite color, her mom's favorite color, her teacher's favorite color. She told me that "Ci Ci is SO mean sometimes but May May is always nice AND May May has SO MUCH duct tape!" She told me about how she got so much more play dough from her mom for Christmas and she "LOVES it!" Lilly Bug talked and talked but I only understood about four words... and not for lack of trying! We watched "Oh Toodles!" on my phone and Janie played games on the phone. I am going to have to do this like once a month! They made my day!

Wednesday, January 16, 2013


Dearest JH: Thank you for checking on me multiple times during my History class last night just because you knew that I was really scared. Thank you for bringing me hot cocoa from Starbucks randomly because you know it makes me happy. Dearest DVD: Thank you for holding down the fort on the back row of Zumba class with me. Thank you for not laughing at me when I am yelling "owie!" Thank you for getting water after just like me. Thank you for assuring me that yes, this really is going to hurt ALL.DAY.LONG. Only a whole semester of this! Dearest Nana: Thank you for having my back. Thank you for getting up early to feed the quorum and get them off to school every morning. Thank you for staying up with them until bedtime because I have to go to bed so early for early morning classes. Thank you for having faith in me that I really can do this. Thank you. Dearest DL: Thank you for promising me that next time I can have whatever I want... including a golf cart to drive around campus! Even though I am pretty sure that 1) you have no idea that I have a blog, therefore you won't be reading this and 2) you probably don't have the authority to promise me a golf cart anyways. Dearest Quorum: This is really important. It's important that Mommy gets a College Degree. Thank you for cheering me on and for being patient. Thank you for your hugs and loves and sweet notes. Thank you for believing in me. When I walk down that row for graduation, which I WILL, I want every one of you to be there to celebrate with me!!!

Tuesday, January 15, 2013

Back to School

Yesterday was my first day back at school. I have been a nervous wreck... literally. Terrified. My anxiety has been out of control. My Braxton got decided to help me out and get me ready for my first week of school. He got the gym bag ready for Mondays and Wednesdays when I have Zumba. He got my back pack ready for Tuesdays and Thursdays when I have History. He laid everything out on the couches and organized. He even put my pens, pencils and highlighters in one of his pencil boxes. I MIGHT be the only College student in class with my very own pencil box. Every time I open it, I will think of Braxton who worked so hard to make my first week back the best possible.
I am so thankful for my mom who is getting home on Tuesday and Thursday nights to feed the quorum dinner. I am so thankful that she is trying to keep me calm... VERY difficult task right now! I am so thankful for Miss Birdie who keeps telling me over and over that I can do this... I can do this... I can do this. I am so thankful for my sweet B. Beck who text me last night to ask how my first day of school went. I am so thankful for my quorum who called me after school to ask how my first day went and to tell me how proud of me they are. I am so thankful for my love who keeps telling me that I'm going to do great. I am stronger than I think!!

Monday, January 14, 2013

January Service Project

We accomplished our January service project over the weekend. We made cookies, cake pops and peppermint bark. Then, we packaged them up and wrote a cute little note for my cousins, Shanna and Holly. They are college students and we thought they might need a little pick-me-up. Hopefully they will receive our "sweet" treats in the mail early this week.

Thursday, January 10, 2013

Happy Birthday Joshua!

It is this handsome boy's birthday today. He is an old man now. I reminded him of that last night while we were watching Chicago Fire from our respective homes/beds. I sent him 34 texts describing how great he is. The #34 described how he is now an old man. What?! Someone has to break the news to him! I love this old man. A lot.

Tuesday, January 8, 2013

My New Hobby

Cake pops! Josh bought me a cake pop maker. I love it. It's the easiest dang thing! I love decorating them. I need to get way more creative and have a lot of fun with it, but it's a really easy treat. I have a bunch of ziplock bags in the freezer with cake pops in them. I can pull them out and decorate them anytime and it's a super easy treat!!

Monday, January 7, 2013

Just Chillin'

Since Christmas, we have been a family full of chill! Besides the fact that the temperatures are crazy and bitter cold, the kids each got a DVD player for Christmas. Best gifts ever!!! It was a great gift for them, but a better gift for me and Nana! Kaydon watches a movie a day on "his spot" on the couch, just quiet and content. It has been a great calming device for Colton. When he is struggling, I can tell him to get a movie and quietly watch it on his bed and he will, and it really does calm him! Braxton watches a movie every night while he falls asleep and Jackson watches movies whenever he feels like it. Brooklyn switches back and forth between the boys' players. Whichever movie she feels like watching is the one she watches, sippy cup and all. And, what does the Mama do? Well, sometimes a fall asleep!