My Family

"Life will knock you down. You can choose to stand up again."

Friday, March 29, 2013

Easter Egg Hunt

Ever since I started school and this heart of mine decided to poop out on me, I have felt a bit disconnected from my children. My children are my life. I love my children with every ounce of my being. I miss them so much that I cry most nights. I get home, plop in my bed, wake up before anyone else is up and do it all over again. Oh, I miss their funny stories and their stinky feet and their hugs and kisses! Last night was Papa and Grandma's Annual Easter Egg Hunt. I had told them that I wouldn't be able to be there because I have class on Thursday nights and I had a big exam last night. I was able to finish my exam early and I rushed (over the speed limit) to the church where the hunt was being held. I made it in time!! I watched my dad pull up with my quorum and I just smiled. Oh, how I was so happy to be there to watch them! I even participated! I am a sucker for egg hunts! My boys were spoiled rotten with coins and dollar bills and candy, of course. I was spoiled just to see their faces and hear their voices and watch their excitement. It was perfect.

Wednesday, March 27, 2013

SO lucky!

I am a lucky, lucky girl. I have a mom who is doing way too much just to help me. She must be exhausted every single day, but she doesn't complain. She just keeps going and going. I have a guy in my life who is so good to me. He called the boys last night to take care of a little lit matches in the garage problem. I came home after buying Jackson some pants to find out that it had all been taken care of. I didn't have to deal with it. At all. I have a ten year old who saw me after a long, long day last night with my make-up off and my hair disheveled. He looked at me so sweetly and said, "Mommy, you are so beautiful." He meant it. I have an eleven year old who MADE me eat something before I went to bed last night... "Even if it's just a banana, Mom, you have to eat something." He meant it. I have a nine year old who comes into my room every single night and tucks me in and says a prayer with me. He always asks Heavenly Father to make my heart strong so I can be with him for a long, long time. I have a thirteen year old who honors his Aaronic Priesthood, who is a good example to his brothers, who loves his mom and his nana with all his heart. The guys aforementioned has a little girl who wraps her arms around my neck and squeezes and squeezes. She melts my heart. She makes me laugh. I am surrounded by goodness and happiness and safety and peace. No drama. Just peace. I am a lucky, lucky girl.

Tuesday, March 26, 2013

March Service Project

Our March service project is a little different. I was able to purchase several gift certificates from for a quarter of the price. I wrote a note to go with each gift certificate. The notes were all the same... just basically that whoever receives this is awesome and amazing and is better than they might think. There are 10 of them. We put them in envelopes and the boys are delivering them to houses in the neighborhood today. The rule is that they have to go to houses where we don't know the person. They are just taping them on the door and leaving. We really hope that whoever receives these will know that they are awesome and amazing and better than they think!!

Monday, March 25, 2013

Cedar City with NO Pictures

Friday morning, the quorum and I drove to Cedar City. It was beautiful. The sun was shining from Provo all the way to Cedar. The boys all had their DVD players and watched movies quietly. The speedometer broke around, oh say Nephi... but never fear! Apps are here! Jackson downloaded a speedometer app and we were good to go! Haven't stopped using that puppy ever since! When we got to Cedar, we went potty and then headed to our paradise of a hotel... NOT. This place was one point above something you would see on the Discovery Channel. Oh well. Then we went to lunch and to the movies. We saw Croods. I don't get out to see many movies. And, when I do I rarely feel the need to own the movie that I saw. I will own this movie. It was darling! Then, we went to the Community Center. Why? Because the indoor swimming pool at the hotel was really an outdoor swimming pool. Nice. The boys swam at the community center for four hours while I studied. It was heaven. Really, it was! After that, we went back to the hotel. This is when it got really fun. I pulled out the hide-a-bed... the one that I was supposed to sleep on... Layed down... ALL THE WAY down...onto the floor. That's right! Broken bed. I had Jackson come in and look at it. "There is no fixing this piece of crap, Mom!" Awesome. I slept on the couch with my heart monitor equipment on a chair next to me. Colton started to not feel so good, so he ended up on the floor next to me. Don't worry... NO bedding for the so called hide-a-bed, so I wrapped him in towels to keep him warm and turned the thermostat up to 78! Living the dream! When we woke up and ate breakfast, the boys decided that they just wanted to go home. That was our trip! Yep... making memories one hide-a-bed at a time!!

Wednesday, March 20, 2013

Celebrating Nana's Birthday

Last night we celebrated Nana's birthday! Her birthday is actually on Friday but the boys and I will be on a little trip. We went to the Olive Garden. Oh, so yummy! There was an opera singer there who sang happy birthday to her. The boys were imitating him all night long! Then we went home for some Baskin Robbins goodness! We love our Nana!!!!!

Tuesday, March 19, 2013

Career Day

Today is Career Day at the boys' school. They all got dressed up today to show what they want to be when they grow up and take care of their Mama and their Nana! Braxton is a police detective! Kaydon is a Meterologist! Colton is an elementary school teacher!

Monday, March 18, 2013

Day With My Girl & St. Patricks Day Dinner

Saturday was such a beautiful day! Josh and I took Brooklyn to the mall to get her an Easter dress and some pizza. It was a bit of a rough realization to me.. I have really slowed down. It was tough for me to walk very far and very long, but it made my heart happy to watch Brooklyn run through the mall. I can't wait to post a picture of her Easter dress. SO cute! We also got a frozen yogurt before we headed back home. Josh had his first football practice on Saturday so he took Sis and I home and left. She desperately wanted to play at the playground, so we walked around the fence and she played and played. It was such a nice day! Josh and I had a date planned for that night... I had bought Jazz tickets for his Valentines gift. I think he could tell that I had faded by that point, so he drove to a nice restaurant and we ate, then we went home and ordered the fights. He is a sweetheart. He really is. On Sunday after church, we came home to the yummiest dinner! We even had green juice! Josh is a fantastic cook. The boys LOVE when he cooks!!! Me too.

Thursday, March 14, 2013

A Tired Heart

I was in the hospital Tuesday night. I started out with the intention to go to the School Health Clinic - they asked me to go to Insta Care - I drove myself there, but after taking my vitals they said that I needed to go to the Emergency Room. They took good care of me there. I had an IV, blood work, chest x-rays, an EKG, urine tests, and a super fun laying, sitting, standing test. That last one didn't go so well. My dad has a heart condition. He has had two procedures done on that heart of his. He is also on medication now. It's genetic and it is more-than-likely that I have the same condition. I had an episode with my heart a week ago. On Monday night, I passed out. In front of my children. It scared them quite badly. I felt worse and worse as Tuesday went on. My heart is tired. Besides having a heart condition, the blood work showed that I might also have Mono. That's fun. Right now, I am wearing an external heart monitor 24 hours a day for 30 days. It's a little cumbersome, and sometimes frustrating, but it's going to be a good thing for me. It sits in a super stylish fanny pack on my hips and goes with me everywhere... even to bed. This has put an extra burden on my mom. She is so tired. She is trying to do everything around the house, make sure my kids are okay and check on my every few hours. She is exhausted. My children have suffered considerably. They are so worried about their Mama. Monday's event really scared them. A lot. Jackson is a bit of a wreck right now. He just can't let me out of his sight. He even struggles to go hang out with friends at night when I'm home. He doesn't like me to close my door or the bathroom door. Please pray for my boys. They need some extra strength and comfort right now. Please pray for my mom. She has already raised three kids! She shouldn't have to be doing this again! Please look at these flowers and smile. They're from Paula. Yellow is my favorite color. These flowers make my tired heart so happy!

Wednesday, March 13, 2013

Ice Cream

With the big boys (Joshua and Jackson) gone Friday night, the "little" boys and I went to Sub Zero. Why? Because that's how I roll. A huge cup of ice cream goodness in a freshly made waffle cone bowl. That is heaven. Did you know that my first job was at TCBY Yogurt? It was. I LOVED that flipping job. I worked at TCBY for like six years total. I'd work there now if they offered benefits... not kidding. Those were good times! I seriously loved every minute of every shift at that place. Those are some good memories! Ice cream/frozen yogurt/ice cream cakes/ice cream pies... Mommy likey!

Tuesday, March 12, 2013

Fish and Cookies

Jackson went on a scout overnighter on Friday night. They went ice fishing. He caught a cutthroat trout. The boys were FASCINATED by this animal! They kept touching its eyes and its teeth. They talked to it. The thing was already dead, but who cares?! Nana cooked it up last night. I didn't get to taste it because I passed out (literally), but I heard it was yummy! Jackson and Braxton made chocolate chip cookies on Sunday. Safety first! Braxton attempted to put liquid smoke in the dough instead of vanilla. Not good. They could not get their measurements right, or follow the steps on the directions. So what?!?! They made me and Nana laugh our heads off. They also ate all of the cookies and they are still living. Chalk that up to a success!

Monday, March 11, 2013

Lunch with the Girlies

Seriously LOVE these girlies! We had planned to go to Arbys, but Janie really wanted a "handlaburger." She informed me that I could find those at Arctic Circle. What Janie wants... Janie gets! After lunch, we went to the store to get some Easter eggs and candy. Lilly may or may not have had a months worth of jelly beans in like 4.2 minutes flat. How can you resist that face?!?! I can't wait for our date in April!

Friday, March 8, 2013

Races and Picks

Joshua is off to Vegas this weekend, protecting the drivers of the race cars. He loves to go do this twice a year. He loves this time with the safety team. He loves to be out on the track doing his job. He loves everything about it, I'm pretty sure. The boys like to look for him on the tv. Hopefully the weather will help make it a fun weekend for him! The boys have been begging for mommy time. Kaydon cried when I went to work today. The boys are all out of school today. So, I gave them two jobs for today. First, write Auntie Paula a thank you card for the rocket she got them and the girl scout cookies. Second, they need to write down one thing that they would like to do with Mom this weekend. I'm excited to see what they request. Jackson will be at a scout camp this weekend, so it'll just be the three youngest and I. I plan to make this weekend about the boys as much as I can. We all need that!

Wednesday, March 6, 2013

A Girl Scout Cookies Rambling Post

I have a co-worker, Paula, who we lovingly call "Auntie Paula." She likes to send home treats and goodies for the boys. Last night, they got some girl scout cookies (samoas)! LUCKY!! I was reminded of how blessed I am. This has not been an easy journey for us. It has been a tough, uphill journey. But, as I look back on every minute of it, I have never, ever been alone. Heavenly Father has blessed me expedentially. He knows me, and you. He knows my strengths and weaknesses. He knows what I need. And, He blesses me and my children with those things. There have been people all along the way who have helped in so many ways. Whether it's passing on a bag of used clothes, or buying my son a scout shirt, or helping us shovel the walks, or sending a cute card, or buying my children goodies, or praying for us. I remember when Colton was born, B. Beck came, put me in the wheelchair and wheeled me down to the NICU to hold him and love on him. I remember when I have felt so alone and so down, and N brings homemeade bread that Miss Birdie sends. I remember when Braxton threw a fit about tying a tie and the next door neighbor came over and just spent 20 minutes with him. I remember when I had no idea how I was going to buy Kaydon a scout shirt, and then he came home from scouts with a new one and all of his patches. We are never, ever alone. I am so grateful for these samoas that my children can enjoy, and for every single person who has blessed us. It was my choice to go back to school and so much pressure has fallen to my sweet mom. I know she is exhausted, but she has been ultra supportive of me. She tells me every day that she is proud of me and she never, ever complains. I could not have done this without her and I am so thankful.

Tuesday, March 5, 2013

Brooklyn's Pagent Ribbon

Sunday was Brooklyn's day! She received the Daughter of God ribbon in Primary. She was recognized for helping Braxton to put away his laundry since his wrist is broken. She is such a ham! She stood up there and acted like it was no big deal, but when she got home, she was SO excited that she got to be the Daughter of God!!

Monday, March 4, 2013

Little Miss at the Mall

On Saturday, we took Sis to the mall. She went on the merry-go-round and played in the dinosaur station and got to go on a choo-choo train! She even got to go to the candy shop to pick out 5 of everything. When we got home, she rode her scooter for a little bit until the boys got home. She loved every minute of it! So fun!

Friday, March 1, 2013

Quack Quack

I have boys. I also have Aflac. (Quack Quack) Braxton decided to chase after Kaydon, who was supposedly spying on Braxton and Braxton's friends. While chasing Kaydon (who is much faster so it was pointless to chase him anyways), Braxton fell on the cement, landed on his left wrist and drug his face along the cement. He called me just as I was preparing to go to class and told me he needed to go to the doctor. Those Insta Care docs get a kick out of us! One doctor there calls us the "Chain Saw Club" for obvious reasons. Remember when Braxton was cut my a chain saw... yeah that was awesome. X-rays, tears, nausea, a few laughs, a brace and explicit instructions to not do ANYTHING that could jeopardize his face or his wrist and we were back home. Orthopedist appointment in a week and if the swelling on his lower orbital bone doesn't go down in three days, we are off for a CT scan. Sweet!