Mommy loves you. I am so proud of you. We are doing it, aren't we? Just like I promised you - we are doing it. Every day we get up, we get out of bed, we eat, we pray, we do our awesome-sauce cheer, we go to where we need to be, and we do it to the best of our ability. There is food on the table and clothes on our bodies. We are smiling and laughing, and sometimes crying. But we aren't crying because we are weak. We are crying because we are human.
Jackson, thank goodness you drive now! Yikes. You are working hard as a new shift leader at work. You are working hard at school, even though you keep telling me to pray that you'll just make it through the school year. You are learning and growing. You ripped your brand new contact on Friday and wanted to say a bad word but you didn't - at least not out loud. Good work, Bubba! You want to take care of everything, but you don't have to. Mom's got it. You are handsome and funny and emotional and courageous. You're a survivor and a dang good one!
Braxton, thank goodness for modern medicine! Yikes. You are recovering from one of the scariest experiences of my life. You are trying out for the track team today. Not sure if that is a good idea, but you want to try and I'm going to support you in that. You make sure Mom is taken care of all the time. You make sure I am walked into buildings, the door is held open for me, and that I am comfortable. Girls are ringing the doorbell at all times in the middle of the night. I want to scream, but I don't because someday I'm going to miss this oh, so much. You are handsome, hardworking, loyal, and such a gentleman.
Kaydon, thank goodness for Dr. Mizell who saved your life all those years ago! Yikes! I can't imagine my life without your sweet heart. You are doing so well in school. You are practicing for the awesome dance you agreed to be a part of, even though you are regretting that decision now. You'll do great! I can't wait to see it! You are so sensitive to Mom's feelings and emotions. You ask lots of questions, which I hope never changes. You are so goal-oriented and you have big plans for the future! You are handsome, creative, imaginative, and hilarious.
Colton, thank goodness for your sweet spirit in our family! Yikes! You teach us patience and love like no one else could. You work so hard to navigate this world that is oh, so hard for you. You try so hard and you are almost always happy. You love everyone you meet, even if they aren't worthy of your love! I love that about you. You are handsome, genuine, loving, affectionate, and you love your Mama.
I used to tell Heavenly Father that my most righteous desire was to be married and have a family. I have that family! Not all families look the same, but ours is amazing. Our life is not what we pictured it would be, but it's a beautiful life. We work so hard as a team of five and we make things happen. We are moving mountains, Boys. They might not be literal mountains, but they are definitely mountains in our lives! We need to keep working hard and smiling and laughing and living. We need to work together to do these things because we can't do them alone.
Mommy loves you for eternity and every day I will do my best to live worthy of being with you for eternity!