Half Day

Thank goodness for Half-Day-Wednesdays.

Guys, come in close for this one...

I am not in a good place right now.

And here I am coaching about worth.

And I am failing at living in my own!

All the thoughts and emotions are a bit heavy right now.

Okay, they are a lotta bit heavy right now.

I realized, however, that in this very uncomfortable season I am learning and growing and doing all of those things that I literally hate doing!!!!

Moreover...

When we are doing what we are meant to do, Satan jumps in knee deep and does his best to destroy you.

Satan,

Hi, it's me.

You know me well.

You've done well with me for 44 years.

I'd say I hate your guts, but you don't have any.

Or balls.

Or shoulders.

Or any of the things that I would love to kick you in because you don't even have a damn body.

So, back the hell up.

This girl isn't going anywhere.

Sincerely, 

Me

I have been spewing my emotions to the people who love me.

See me.

Hear me.

And, still love me.

I'm not completely unlovable, come to find out.

I am here to coach worth.

To coach living in our worth.

And, I'm still here... living in my own as I discover what it all is.

 

Auntie & Chloe Date

Chloe.

Confident.

Kind.

Smart. 

Fierce.

Creative.

Loving.

We went to Farmington Station, ate some yummy food then walked around the Farmer's Market and shops.

This little eleven year old girl is finding who she is, and doing it with transparency and integrity.

Oh, how I love her!

 

Nature-ing

I did some nature-ing this weekend.

Friday night it was Monte Cristo.

Oh my goodness...

The meadows of wild flowers - YELLOW wild flowers!

Purple and orange, yes.

But, the yellow ones are out of this world.

The Aspen trees are incredible.

The deer.

The birds.

The cooler temperatures.

Yesterday, I natured at Antelope Island.

The bison.

The buffalo.

The antelope.

The sage brush.

The salty smell.

This mama needed some nature.

 

Alright, Fine

This is me this morning.

Ready to attempt this Friday.

At around 9 am, I was on the phone, telling someone that I was trying VERY hard to be professional today.

Xavier laughed OUT LOUD.

I can't really blame him.

Tomorrow, I have an Auntie Date with Miss Chloe.

I get to put some makeup on a gorgeous girl!

And, maybe fights??

Oh, and Mr. Watkins and Beyta and probably Coors Light and Big Larry attached the front bumper to the Honda so it no longer requires a bungee cord.

In the midst of doing that, they noticed that at any moment, two of my tires could blow out and informed me that Braxton needed to clean out my Chevy stat.

So, I'm back to driving my cute little stick shift!

Happy Weekend!

 

Dude

Fact.

Although, with my boys it's "DUDE!"

I went from Ma to Mama to Mommy to Mom/Ma/Mommy to Dude.

I'll take it.

Yesterday when I left work at noon, I went and played with the babes.

They had just been to the Zoo with their parents.

Anson loves the animals.

Asher loves the splash pad, otters and train.

I got my hair cut yesterday...

It's the little things, People!

Like having someone wash your hair!!!

Morgan is our girl. 

She and her family are moving to Japan in October.

I feel like I'm going to have to grieve that loss, too.

Then, I watched baseball and colored and colored and watched baseball!

Oh, and Kaydon brought me home some ice cream.

So I colored and watched baseball whilst smiling about my ice cream!

 

Distracted Primary

 My Becky Beck's son and daughter-in-law live in our ward.

They are a large part of the miracle that took place with getting us to where we are!

Jenna sits right behind me in Primary.

For some reason, when she walked in on Sunday I felt the need to ask how Emmy was... even though I had just talked to Becky the night before.

Jenna's face went pale.

She said she was just getting ready to tell me that things were not good...

Emmy's placenta was abrupting. The baby and Emmy were in danger.

Neither of us could focus.

We were staring at our phones, just a foot or two away from each other... waiting for any update and praying our guts out!

Becky was texting both of us.

Thankfully, miracles took place on Sunday.

Emmy was already in the hospital with her preeclampsia. 

She and the baby are SO good!

Little Maisie will be NICUing it for a bit, but  she is here and healthy!

In other news, this beautiful beaded sign was left on our porch over the weekend.

It's amazing!!!

And, it's my half-day.

I get to Auntie, work out, and get my hair cut!

Ashy

I REALLY love this picture that Brandon caught...

Me holding Ashy.

He may not be able to speak yet, but he communicates exactly what he wants and needs and his hugs and loves lately have been exactly what MY soul needs!

He gives the best squeezes.

The best loves.

He is the most amazing little Asher I know.

And, Anson...

The baby LOVES Anson time!

He thought the hat was cool for about 27 seconds, then not so much!