Surgery

So, I have pictures on my camera to post about last weekend, but I left the camera at Josh's house on Sunday, so I just haven't blogged.

However, yesterday, I had a doctor's appointment and I have an update. Two days before I went to Hawaii, I had an ablation done. It was supposed to stop all of my bleeding (I've been having three full periods a month). I have had three full periods since the ablation, after which I bled for two weeks. Good times! I went back to my doctor yesterday and he said that it's time to have a hysterectomy.

I knew that was what he was going to say. I have known for over a year that I needed to have a hysterectomy. I have known for a few months that there is a growth on my right ovary. I have known that the bleeding has to get under control. I know that I have four healthy children and that I don't need anymore. But, something about having a hysterectomy makes me so emotional. I have cried myself to sleep the last two nights. I am so aware that people around me have MUCH bigger trials than I do. I know that I am probably not sounding rational right now, but knowing that the very things that allowed me to have children are being taken away from me-somehow breaks my heart.

Surgery is February 9 at Jordan Valley Hospital. My mom will be with me. I'll stay in the hospital for a couple of days. The doctor said 4 -6 weeks off work. I about crapped my pants!!! I told him I couldn't be off more than 2 weeks. He just laughed at me. I repeated that I would be back to work in 2 weeks. He might be concerned about my mental health...

He's not the only one!