Wednesday, March 31, 2021

Kaya's Vacation

Miss Kaya is on vacation for a week.
She is spending her days, and her nights, with her uncle and auntie and two cousins.
Kaya was REALLY struggling on Friday as we moved.
Her anxiety was so high and she just cried and cried.
We thought we were going to have to take her back.
But, Uncle Arlin and Auntie Cyd couldn't handle their nephew, Colton, sobbing.
They took her for the week so that we could get unpacked and get our emotions in a better place.
She is living her best life!
We miss her desperately.
Gus is still not eating.
We are hoping that when Sissy gets home, he will start eating. 
We have been sitting on the floor with him, trying to hand feed him.
He won't even take it that way.

Kaya, we are SO glad you are having the best time with Uncle, Auntie and Cousins.
We can't wait to have you back home!




 

Tuesday, March 30, 2021

Home

Home is coming together.
The front room, kitchen, bathroom and my room are unpacked and have wall hangings up.
I am SO grateful I have handy kids!
I'd literally hang everything with thumb tacks!

The colors are calming and peaceful.
Simplistic.
Clean.
Safe.
Loving.
Full.

Kaydon and Colton will have a bit of a challenge getting their room together because it is so small.
But, we will get it handled when they get home this weekend!

Home
We are home.











 

Monday, March 29, 2021

We Are Worthy

Hello, Friends & Family!
We are alive.
We are living.
We are loving.
We are doing the very best we can do.

We found out last Sunday that Mike was not faithful in our marriage.
To say that we were shocked, confused, devastated is an understatement.
Mike left Sunday night while the boys and I worked HARD to find a place to live.
Miracle One:
The home we found was not even listed.
After a large-scale fast and prayer on our behalf, my Becky Beck texted me this person's phone number and I called.
We can afford it, barely.
Everything is SO expensive right now.
We can have our dogs.
We will fit.
It is still so close to school.

We packed, again.
We moved.
With Mr. Watkins, Beyta, and Cory's help.

Kaydon is in San Diego this week with his uncles.
Blessing.
Colton is in Sandy this week with Jackson and my mom.
Blessing.

Braxton and I have the house pretty much in order.
Kaydon and Colton's room will need work.
We have what we need and we are safe.

Miracle Two:
The stimulus came in the very day that I needed to pay the deposit and first month's rent.

Miracle Three:
I paid the car off.

It would take me hours to list the blessings that have been ours this week.
1. I feel very confident in myself and in the choice I made for my children and I.
There was no begging or pleading for him to change and be better.
There was simply the question of whether he would go to therapy, then a decision was made.
2. Mike's brother and two sister-in-laws are mine to keep. 
They bought me a bed and put it together. They are keeping Kaya for the week. They were the first ones to the house when it all went down. They witnessed it all. They have carried me through this time.
3. My T somehow made it to our house in record time from Tokyo. She held me while I sobbed. She is there for my boys and they know to call their auntie when they need her.
4. Anson. Oh, my Anson. He brightens my every minute.
5. I have not had any post-stroke symptoms, besides cognitive fatigue. (Miracle Four)
6. I have two boys who hold the Priesthood. I have recieved four blessings in the past week.
7. Miss Birdie is my person. She knows me. She loves me. She has now been through this THREE times with me.
8. My Tiffni. This girl is everything. She has messaged me every single day to get me to eat. She brought us a ton of supplies we simply didn't have. 
9. My Chelsi. 
10. My job.

We are going to be okay. 
Like my Becky Beck said, we are going to be even better!!!!








 

Wednesday, March 17, 2021

Minky

Yesterday was Lash Day.
My Lash Girl could be my daughter.
But I don't have any daughters.
So she isn't... plus I didn't give birth to her... obviously.
She cracks me up.
I learn SO much about being a young lady in this world that we live in and it's horrifying.

I adore her.
She texted me last week and asked me what my favorite color was.
YELLOW!
Yesterday, she told me that she had something for me and to remind her.
So, listen up!
As soon as I walked in...'You have a gift for me!!!!!'

She handed me this AFTER she did my lashes.
And told me not to cry because my lashes were fresh...
And she does VERY badly with people crying...
So I left.
And cried.





 

Tuesday, March 16, 2021

Heidi Day

I had a slight break over the weekend.
It was nothing earth-shattering.
But there were tears.
And feelings that I had to feel and wasn't quite sure how to.

Yesterday morning, my sweet husband texted me.
"Are you going to work from home today, or are you going to take a self care day?
I told him I'd be working.
Then 11 am came around and I was done.
I messaged my sweet husband and told him that I was going to take the rest of the day off.

I went and had my hands, arms, and feet rubbed.
My good friends had missed me.
My nails all look very Easter-y now.
Then I went to the gym.
I walked.
A slower walk, not at a crazy incline.
Just walking.
Feeling my feet hit the treadmill belt just the way they should be.
I sat in the sauna.
And I sweat.
A lot.
I love the fact that I sweat a lot in the sauna.
I imagine it's all of the toxins and negative thoughts coming out of my pores, enabling my chakras.
Then, I went and had a facial.
Mostly what I remember about my day was that I had people touching me.
Kindly.
People were caring for me and my body just the way I should be doing.

The night ended with Mike and I going for a walk.

It was just what I needed.