My Bird Friend

I know that this sounds weird to some people and I do not care.

Ever since Perry died, I have felt his presence in birds.

When his sister came to talk to me at work, she told me everything that Perry had asked her to tell me.

One of them was, "I can be with her all the time, no matter where it is."

I really, truly believe that he comes to me in the form of birds.

It's happened so many times.

At games, at work when I'm sitting outside, at the pool with my kids, in Mexico on the beach.

I feel his presence SO clearly.

On Monday morning, I was at work alone for five hours and I was stressed out.

I had talked with Burke Sunday night about how I was feeling and things that I could do, or not do, to keep myself under control at work for the foreseeable future.

At around 11 am, I looked outside my office window.

Here sat a sparrow hawk.

Staring right in my window.

People were walking by him, he didn't move.

I stood up.

I was waving at him.

Talking to him.

He didn't move.

He stayed there for over 30 minutes.

Just looking down at the bushes and back at me.

Looking around my office.

Just stayed there as if to say, "I got you, Sis. You aren't ever alone."

I wished that it was really him and he'd walk in singing, "Heidi Rae is here today!"

But this was the next best thing!