Dear Sis

Dear Sis,

Today I miss you. There is not a day that goes by that I don't think about you and wonder how tall you're getting, how long your hair is, or if your finger nails are painted. I wonder if you're singing new songs, drawing new pictures, watching new movies. I wonder if you're handwriting has changed and what numbers you are adding and subtracting. I wonder who you are eating lunch with and who you are playing with at recess.

Sis, I helped raise you for six years. I was your other mom for six years. You were my girl for six years. Then, just like that you weren't. I don't see you. I don't talk to you. I have no contact with you and it hurts. It makes me sad. I know that you have a great mom and great dads. I know that you are loved infinitely. But, today hurts.

The boys often say how they miss you as well. You were a part of us. You were our family. You were our daughter and our sister. Great Grandma Nef texted me last night and asked if it would be okay for her to send you a birthday card this year. I told her that it was of course be fine. We all miss you. Nana and Pops, Papa and Grandma, Aunts and Uncles. We love you. We always will. Part of my heart is gone. It's the part of my heart that you filled so perfectly.

Someday, I wonder if we can get a pedicure again, watch a movie together again, play a game together, read a book together, or just have me hold you and rock you again. I wonder if I can ever braid your hair again, watch you tie your shoes again. I wonder if I can ever have you "massage my shoulders" again. I wonder if I'll ever hold you again.

Until then, I'll love you forever and for eternity Sis.