I have moved to seeing my doctor every other week now, which feels like improvement to me. This Friday, I am hoping to hear that my doctor will let me go to six hours Mondays and Tuesdays. There has not even been discussion as of yet to going to full-time. Patience is something that I continue to practice every single day. How grateful I am for my amazing, skilled, dedicated, and loving doctors!
My left eye is still very sensitive, and easily overly stimulated. Strobe lights, blinking lights, flashing lights are all very overwhelming to my healing brain still. I close my eyes and cover them to help. My hearing is still also healing. Church is the hardest. My brain is still unable to decifer multiple conversations. It causes physical pain, and a lot of confusion to me. At work, I remind my guys to talk one at a time. My kids are great about it. Being out in public at restaurants or theaters can be overwhelming. We try to sit away from large, noisy groups. The boys are great. They always remind me that I can get up and walk away at any moment. Sometimes I do. My walking and balance are good. I do yoga everyday to keep my body well-connected to my brain. It's super helpful.
My left hand sometimes goes numb or tingly. I usually just stop what I am doing and meditate for a minute. That almost always calms things down for me. A sweet lady in my ward is a massage therapist. She tries to come twice a week to massage me. It has helped so much. The feeling in my leg and arm, and on the left side of my head gets stronger every time she comes.
I am able to curl my own hair now, although the boys will still help! Every now and then, I have a hard time taking lids off, but for the most part I am completely self sufficient. I haven't yet tried to drive a stick again. Between the more complex thought process involved, and the fact that my left side is still somewhat weaker, it just hasn't been a priority.
I bake like a crazy person! It's so rewarding to me every time I do it! Following instructions, remembering to set timers, turn off the oven, etc. is all something that I've had to practice repeatedly. It's a rewarding, confidence-building exercise because I have immediate positive results. I love to do it! I go to the gym now and then, usually when my boys are there. I am only going once or twice a week, but am ready to go more. I try to go when no one is there --- like right after I get off of work. That helps the over stimulation of noise and sight.
On Sunday, I handed my mom all of my medical bills. I organized them, but am unable to figure out what to do at this point. Rather than judging myself, I am kind to myself. I realize that I still need help with some important tasks, and thankfully she is willing to go through them. I am so blessed with the most amazing support system EVER. My parents, brothers, sister, ward, co-workers, and the best friends a girl could ask for! We could not do this without everyone.
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