Who Am I?

Mama had a tough night.

My babes were born within four years of each other.

When Colton was four months old, we left.

Although there have been "relationships" over the last 18 years, it's been my boys and I since they were born.

They are men now.

Jackson moved out when he went on his mission.

He now lives in Sandy and works as a project manager.

Braxton moved out two months ago.

He lives in Brigham City and is a plumbing apprentice.

Kaydon leaves November 1st, and packed up the rest of his stuff last night before he and Colton headed to Sandy for a sleep over with Big Brother.

Last night, I made muffins and cried.

Gus came into my room and cuddled with me for a couple of hours while I talked to God and meditated.

I simply told Heavenly Father that I'm not sure who I am without my boys...

He reminded me with a few tender mercies that I am His.

I am still a mama.

I told Him that I feel like I've just started being my very best self, and the very best mom.

He reminded me with a very sacred experience that I have eternity to continue to be the very best mom.

And with that, I closed my eyes and rose again today to do this thing we call life!