Love 2019

Happy Love Day, Everyone!

Today is a great day for lovers.

Today can be a hard day for singles and those in relationships that are not good.

I know. 

I've been there.

Most of my life!

Therefore I've learned that today is a great day to love yourself!

I mean it!

It's not selfish to love yourself!

Learn about yourself and love yourself.

Once you do, you will attract those who love you - like for real.

And, you will have more love to give.

And that's what brings us joy!!

I was welcomed to work by the most beautiful yellow dozen roses.

Oh my goodness.

They are the most majestic I have EVER seen!

And they are mine.

And a card, candy, Diet Coke, rock, blanket and necklace.
Beautiful morning.

Before I even left the house this morning, Braxton came into my room with this.

I cried.

He hugged me and told me he loved me.

My boys have always been my Valentines.

They are everything that my heart searches for!
They are my whole heart!
I love them so, so much!!

Being a mama and being an auntie is truly the greatest blessing ever.

The love I feel for these humans is infinite and eternal.

Missing this one today.

Missing this one everyday.

So grateful that I know that he is surrounded by a love that can only be given from our Heavenly Father.

He is where he is supposed to be and I love him so big!

Love Day

This dang holiday is so hard for so many people.. and has been for me in the past.

But, it need not be. God loves each of us and His love is the best Valentine.

And, we all have the ability (and the need) to love ourselves to the moon and back.

I have four loves in my life. I woke up to this:

I am crazy-blessed by these boys. They are dreamy in every single way! I love them more than words. I can't even imagine what I did in the pre-existence to be given these four spirits. But, I am eternally grateful for the chance to experience life with them!

Love is amazing... especially when we start with ourselves!

What's Important

Yesterday, I got this text from Colton... along with my response:

I mean every word I said to him. Autism is awesome. Colton is awesome. Colton with Autism is also awesome. And, I can name a mama and three brothers who adore him, so...

In other news, Jackson texted me yesterday and asked if I had lunch plans. Then, he drove up and we went to lunch on Valentine's Day (National Single's Awareness Day). It was the perfect date. It was the perfect Valentine's Day. I ate the biggest burger they had and I am pretty sure that a couple of my French fries actually had sharp edges on them and I did not have a panic attack. So...

LOVE Day!

All the love that I need is in this picture right here!

Have I mentioned before that I love these four creatures? They are absolutely hilarious. They are handsome boys. They are really good eaters. Seriously, though. These kids eat so much stinking food. They love their family. They love ALL of their family. They love their mama. They treat females just the way they should. I am very proud of that.

On this day of love, I so sincerely hope that every single person on earth feels that someone loves them... and more importantly, I hope that they feel that they have someone to love. These boys fill my heart every single day. Some days, it's more like filling my heart with anxiety and fear and angst. But, most days it's filled with love and joy and gratitude.

Bring on the LOOOOOVE

Valentines is a tough holiday. You never know quite how to feel or quite what to say to people. For most of my life, I have hated Valentines Day... with a passion. I hated handing out Valentines in school, I hated that I never once got asked to a Valentines dance or prom, I hated that everyone seemed to get a Valentine... everyone but me... the list goes on and on. But, I LOVE getting Valentines from my kids and for my kids! Braxton woke me up today, wrapped his arms around me and said, "Happy Valentines Day Mama. I love you more than anything." Done. I'm sold. Is that not the best? It is. For those who are divorced, single, widowed, married but miserable, married but lonely, single and lonely, or just plain sad - remember that Valentines isn't just about being someone's Valentine. It's about love, and everyone is loved. Everyone. Remember to take a moment to ask Heavenly Father to be able to feel His love. It's there. I set up a Valentines gift for my kiddos this morning. They'll take their Valentines to school today and pass them out, and they'll come home all sugared up with lots of candy. Jackson will give his sweet "girlfriend" a ridiculously huge teddy bear with a candy bar. He'll have butterflies in his tummy. My sweet dad will give my sweet step-mom flowers. My mom's boyfriend will give her something special. The day will go on and then tomorrow it will be over. Just remember that YOU are loved just as much as the next person.