Listen, Friends. Positive self-talk is hard. For me, it's near impossible. It's hard to begin telling myself that I am enough, or that I'm doing okay, or that I am strong when what I hear on the outside is different... or when my perception of other peoples' thoughts is different. Miss Sarah sent me a packet, with a holder, for my desk. Every morning, I change my card to the next one in line. Then, I look at it all day long. You wouldn't think it would do much, but I have discovered something amazing about myself in the last week.
When I am at the gym, I am there alone. I go by myself. I don't talk to anyone, unless I'm yelling at them for grunting or throwing their weights but that's a different story... Anywho, almost always on my last set of weights (regardless of what they are), I want to give up. My body is shaking and I am sore and tired. The last week, I have discovered that I am saying OUT LOUD to myself, "You can do this. You are strong. Look at what you have been through. You can do another 10 reps, Heidi. In fact, you can do it like a boss. You have got this." Then, as I begin doing the last set, I hear myself saying, "See!!! And you didn't think you could. That was one lift you didn't think you could do.. that's two... that's three and so on."
I am beginning to believe in ME. That is one of the greatest gifts I can give myself. You don't have to buy cards, you can write them. You can put them on post-it notes and then put them on your mirror, or on your dashboard, or on your desk. The more you look at them, the more you will believe them.
