This Young Man of Mine

Jackson sent me this picture yesterday.

If you click on it, he's sobbing.

He told me that he was watching his training videos and crying. A lot.

People!

I cannot explain to you in words adequately how many mixed emotions I have.

I am beyond proud of him for the choice he has made in his life.

I am beyond honored to be his mama.

I am beyond honored to be the mama of his brothers as well.

I am beyond sad to be "losing" him for two years.

That word is not being used with any disrespect toward parents who have lost their children on this Earth. 

It is simply the only word that comes to mind.

This is where our jobs as parents changes so much.

These are the days that I sort of watch him go and be a man and be a good, no great, human being on the planet.

I am going to miss him more than my words can express.

But, I know. I KNOW that he is going where he is supposed to be.