Hello, August! I am really, quite eager to see what you have in store for us. July was quite exciting... full of emotion and adventure, trials and tribulations, joy and happiness, anxiety and strength! It was my first full month back at the gym. It was scout camp for Kaydon. It was more working 60 hour weeks for Jackson and Braxton. It was Jackson receiving the Melchezidek Priesthood. It was a month of being strong and voicing my convictions like the strong, courageous woman I have grown to be. It was changing my eating so that I FEEL better. It was lots of coloring and reading and sitting under shade trees. It was loving on my boys as much as I possibly can.
This picture is hitting crazy-close to home for me right now. I feel like my whole existence has been about trying my best to raise these boys of mine. To do everything needed for their existence. To love them and teach them and train them and direct them. Oh, the number of times I have failed is infinite. But, right now... in this moment... as we await Jackson's mission call... I feel like anything but a failure. I feel love. I feel gratitude. I feel strength. I feel a remembrance that this really has nothing to do with me, but everything to do with my Heavenly Father and my Savior and their grace and their love for my family. We have never walked alone. Ever. I have never doubted that there is a meeting of angels held every morning on our behalf. Everything is fine! Right now, I want to hold on to my babies just a little longer, but I've done my best to teach them to go out in the world and be their best selves. Jackson is about to embark on just that and he's ready. Of that, I am sure.
