Mama Moments

I was chatting with Officer R a couple of weeks ago.

We were talking about parenting and our kids and parenting and the kids...

I mentioned that, as a single parent, whatever goes wrong is on me and me alone.

And, there are plenty of people in my family who would have no problem lining up to tell you everything I've done WRONG in parenting.

It's always been me.

I've not had anyone else to sort of bounce ideas off of.

So, when Jackson threw a snowball that had poop in it on the playground in sixth grade and was suspended - that's on me.

When Braxton stole a finger brace and AA batteries from Fresh Market in fourth grade - that's on me.

When Kaydon shot a sling shot whilst waiting for school to start and broke the neighbor's window - that's on me.

When Colton "borrowed" the neighbor's riding lawn mower to go see Mommy at work and made it to Hooper before running out of gas - yup, on me.

When they have triggers from trauma they've experienced due to my poor choices - on me.

When they fart at the dinner table, or wear glitter headbands as we walk around Target, or pretend that they are fancy like Applebees whilst at Arby's...

On me.

Then there are moments like this:

When my kids show gratitude.

When they are grateful for what we have and who we are.

When all is well.